Sunday, September 04, 2005

Dead Letter Office (V): Escape from New Orleans

[from comment I left over at Bitch, Ph.D.'s place]

I have recent news from a friend of mine, now in Texas, who just escaped New Orleans. He's one of my best friends--about ten years ago, we roomed together in a loft in Chicago.

He, his wife, and dog, had found their way to the Hilton before the storm hit, and weathered the storm there. I spoke with them on Monday after all had concluded that Katrina had spared the city, and they were all right, but had had a harrowing night and morning; they had been asked to fill their bathtub with water in case they needed it, but the building swayed so much during the hurricane that half of it ended up on the bathroom floor. At this point I lost contact with them, but I found out the rest of the story tonight.

After the levies broke and the hotel started filling with water, they decided to go back to their home, which was on the other side of the Mississippi, and windblown but dry; they thought that they would just look after things until the National Gaurd arrived. No one came.

Word starting getting out that there were dry houses in my friend's neighborhood, and refugees began showing up and looting everything in sight; a gunfight broke out, killing one of his neighbors. Still, no National Gaurd.

As more looters and refugees entered the neighborhood, my friend and his wife feared for their lives, and went from house to house in the neighborhood looking for guns; he found a rifle for his wife, and kept a handgun and rifle for himself. Another night, and still, no National Gaurd.

More people continued to appear, and armed gangs started to form; they respected my friends and kept to a distance because they were armed, but they knew that if they were drawn into a gunfight they would die, as they would probably hesitate before shooting, where the others would not. More gunfights that night.

They left early, early in the morning in a car they were half certain would be car-jacked, as some pretty terrifying stories were circulating about people building obstacles in the street and then ambushing stopped cars, but they made it clear to everyone they met that they were armed, and they eventually got through.

It is unbelievable to me that some 48% of Americans believe that the federal government is doing a good job with this; no doubt, this is the same brain dead Fox-watching motherfuckers who voted the Bush Administration into office for a second term.

If we cannot take back the Congress and the Executive in the next year and three, then there is no viable oppositional party in this country, and we will have shown that we as a country have lost our ability to reason.

This is a national shame, and by God, if I hear anyone in a coffeeshop, bar, or restaurant trying to minimize what has happened in New Orleans or explain it away, I swear that I will knock their damned teeth out.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Dead Letter Office (IV)

Thanks for stopping by, if you haven't for a while; here's a bit of an update. Best to all, melancholic.


Dread my lord G,

It’s disastrously hot here as well—I just spent the morning and afternoon standing/sitting/swooning in various lines (DMV, Student Health, City Hall) getting my “life” together, and in the eleventh hour, I might add. Come to think of it, I think that my life has only ever been together in the eleventh hour; things always seem to start falling apart again once the clock strikes twelve, but I suppose that’s because I refuse to pay a bill until it’s been properly fermented, aged, and served six months down the line by a member of the sheriff’s department.

The bad news is that all I have left is basically a pocket full of change, after all of my bills/obligations are paid off; the good news is that I’ve had some pretty exciting bills of late, including plane tickets to Guayaquil, Ecuador, plane tickets from there to the Galapagos Islands, and an eight-day tour on a small boat with Q (believe it or not) and about ten biologists. (I’m presently memorizing a stanza from Byron’s Don Juan, the only English poem of which I’m aware that features any Galapagan fauna, in this case the glorious boobie [it’s from the shipwreck/ cannibal scene]:

Of poor Pedrillo something still remain'd,
    But was used sparingly, --- some were afraid,
And others still their appetites constrained,
    Or but at times a little supper made;
All except Juan, who throughout abstain'd,
    Chewing a piece of bamboo and some lead:
At length they caught two boobies and a noddy,
And then they left off eating the dead body. )

[My sister M] is engaged to be married to an Ecuadorian, a native Galapagan (a guy, not a tortoise or sea cucumber), and I thought that I’d check him and the place out; she seems very happy there, by the way.

If I had to do it all over again, I don’t know if I would, as this has positively broken the bank, I am utterly destitute, but on the other hand, I’ve never swum with sea lions before, or eels, or hammerhead sharks, or eaten roast guinea pig, or seen a whale, or slept on deck a hundred-ton biologist’s vessel, and I’ll be damned if it doesn’t sound like a passable vacation.

Otherwise, I’ve had a good work year—I wrote a rich, eighty-page chapter, one that has I think surprised my committee, and they’re pretty damned friendly now; I was a fellow of sorts at the [impressive institution] in DC, and delivered a thirty-pager that was well-received; but for the last two months, things have been black around here, static, immovable; I’ve been dogged with this unflappable feeling that this is not my beautiful house, this is not my beautiful wife, as the Talking Heads song goes, and I’m all but out of ideas on how to get the life I want, short of working, of which I am nearly mortally tired.

I go on the job market in September, at long, long last, of a certainty, and it will go well, but damn, G, it’s been a long haul; I’ve accomplished near everything I’ve wanted here, as my goals have been almost entirely personal, and having all but fulfilled them, I hardly know where I am anymore. But I’ll get it together for the job market; no worries. This trip should be just the copper-wire scrub to the brain that I need before I pimp myself out before the hiring committees.

I will be accessible via email for the next couple of days, but then will be in a place where the stars are strange and internet access is touch and go. Apologies for the white noise; from nothing comes nothing, as that Celtic jingle goes, and I’ve got basically nothing going on here. I did read a beautiful Ashbery poem the other day, though, entitled “Small Song”:

The reeds give way to the wind,
And give the wind away.

Damned beautiful; I’ll end on that one (it was either that one or the boobies); good to hear from you, G,

melancholic

Friday, April 08, 2005

I resemble that remark

On the dangers of a truly liberal education: a section from Pier Paolo Vergerio's Character and Studies Befitting a Free-Born Youth (1402):
What is more, this excessive desire to know and learn is generally joined with a certain disorderly curiosity to investigate. For when people like this are eager to take up many things one by one, they fall upon the various disciplines all at once, going back now to this one, now to that; now they embrace one subject with all their strength, then, having cast that aside, they embrace another for a bit, then another. This is not only completely useless, but even very damaging, for there is truth in the proverb which says: wines turn sour when they are rebottled too often. So it is better to devote oneself to one thing and to pursue it with all one's zeal. . .
Never in my life have I proceeded methodically in a single subject--after four or five hours, I usually become quite bored with whatever I'm working on, and have to turn to something (often) completely different. Now, it is my fervent belief that such a happenstance anchorless junk-drawer of interests makes for a more interesting life, and yet I cannot help but conclude that I would have definitely completed my Ph.D. program by now had it not been for this admittedly self-indulgent "disorderly curiosity to investigate."

Upon reflection, it might be even worse than I had supposed, as it is not merely incidental that I investigate in a disorderly fashion, but a central aspect of what I am after: hidden and surprising parallels, alarming continuities, occult sympathies in seemingly disparate activities and endeavors. I'm not talking about anything that would be interesting enough to publish in a paper; rather, I suppose that I value (perhaps beyond their worth) the momentary insights that flash in the mind and then are mostly forgotten. Perhaps I desire to seek out the world in its fullness, but also desire to experience it as more of an organic entity than a mere scraphouse of fragmented images. And I enjoy the fact that I am the author of that experience.

Which reminds me: melancholic, you've been working in a single register on a single topic all week, and while this has meant that you've seen a lot of progress in your writing, you need to get out there into the world a bit more. And soon.

Saturday, April 02, 2005

You know what's coming next, right?

Based upon the recent string of breathtaking nominations for prominent jobs at the World Bank and United Nations, I wouldn't be surprised to find John Ashcroft's name, or Jon O'Neil's, Richard Pearle's, or that of James/Jeff Gannon/Guckert on the short list for the most recent job vacancy. Wouldn't that be a thumb in old Europe's eye?

Monday, March 28, 2005

Spread the word, won't you?

[Wow, this hot, blond haired guy from the seventies is suppose to be me.]




Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover





You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires.
And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek. You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships. It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Friday, March 25, 2005

iPod / Crucifixion Shuffle

Stolen, lock, stock, and barrel, from Advice at your own Risk. Do check out dr. karen's shuffle, but here's mine in honour of Good Friday.
    Jesus:
  • Jesus Shootin' Heroin, The Flaming Lips
  • Personal Jesus, Johnny Cash
  • I Want to be like Jesus in my heart, Blind Lemon Jefferson
  • Jesus and Tequila, Minutemen
  • If Jesus Drove a Motorhome, Jim White
  • Chocolate Jesus, Tom Waits
  • Just like Honey, Jesus & Mary Chain
  • You Don't Know Jesus, Mogwai
  • Jesus met the woman at the well, Dave Van Ronk
  • Personal Jesus, Depeche Mode
  • [Jim White's entire album, Wrong-Eyed Jesus]
  • Jesus, etc., Wilco
    Hell
  • Everything Goes to Hell, Tom Waits
  • This is Hell, Elvis Costello
  • Burning Hell, R.E.M.
  • To Hell with Poverty, Gang of Four
  • Burnin' Hell, John Lee Hooker
  • Hell Hound on My Trail, Robert Johnson
  • Run Like Hell, Pink Floyd
    The Devil:
  • Old Devil Moon, Sonny Rollins
  • Sympathy for the Devil, Rolling Stones
  • Old Devil Moon, Chet Baker
  • That ole devil called love, Billie Holiday
  • Me and the devil, Cowboy Junkies
  • I'm taking a devil of a chance, Lightnin' Hopkins
  • You have to be joking (autopsy of the devil), Flaming Lips
  • Bugs Got a Devilish Grin Conga, Kronos Quartet
  • Devil in My Car, B-52's
&&&&&& Update &&&&&&
I'd almost forgotten "The Devil Went Down to Georgia," by the Charlie Daniels Band. Who was Jesus anyway, if not a crazy country boy from the Peach State who was challenged by the devil and a band of demons and won a solid gold fiddle as a reward?
&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Dueling Narcissism


Raphael&Fornarina, originally uploaded by lesserajax.


Check out Medusa's ideal self-portrait and compare it to this one. My question to passers-by is, Which particular variety of longing, idealization, and loneliness is compelling to you? (I should add that I am more the voyeur than the straight-out narcissist; what's interesting is that in both cases, the gazer is looking at something that is not quite real.)